As i watch you fall to the ground.
And see the bruises on your face,
it ties knots in my stomach.
I wonder why God doesnt help us,
and stop him from the harm he's doing.
You make excuses
One after another.
But its time for this to stop.
As I lay in my room, imagining im capable of saving you.
And think of ways on revenge

I am onn my search for safety.

Ben

I am Ben

The boy you see at school

The one you judge.

The guy who’s being bullied,

The one with the alcoholic and abusive father.

The misunderstood one.

I’m not perfect.

And I’m not your average guy.

But I’m me.

Ben

The Breakup

Here lays my heart,
All broken and torn
There are no feelings left in it,
For me to mourn.
Here lays my mind,
Which has repressed;
All the memories we have shared,
That have left me a mess.
Here lays my soul,
Which you took away;
Along with my faith and trust in you,
That you broke in a day.
Here lays my body,
All mangled and left

Beautiful Christina Aguilara: The reason i picked this song was because, when somebody is abused they should never feel like it's their fault. And no matter how they're treated , they're beautiful

Save Me: Even though everyone makes mistakes, you are the only who can change or prevent them.

Who Says: This song was picked because no matter what anybody says, you should always think highly of yourself. And no one is perfect at anything but imperfection.

Pretty Girl Rock: I picked this song because Keri Hilson had self esteem problems and thats why she wrote the song, and it is very motivational

Listen to this playlist: Quicklist

I Am

I am the child who cries
I am the one who's under the bed
I am the one who screams
The one with the bruises
I am the one who is unloved
The one that feels abandon.
I am the one who cant take anymore
The one who in the end will overcome.

I am being abused

• A report of child abuse is made every ten seconds.
• Almost five children die everyday as a result of child abuse. More than three out of four are under the age of 4.
• It is estimated that between 60-85% of child fatalities due to maltreatment are not recorded as such on death certificates.
• 90% of child sexual abuse victims know the perpetrator in some way; 68% are abused by family members.
• Child abuse occurs at every socioeconomic level, across ethnic and cultural lines, within all religions and at all levels of education.
• 31% percent of women in prison in the United States were abused as children.
• Over 60% of people in drug rehabilitation centers report being abused or neglected as a child.
• About 30% of abused and neglected children will later abuse their own children, continuing the horrible cycle of abuse.
• About 80% of 21 year old that were abused as children met criteria for at least one psychological disorder.
• The estimated annual cost of child abuse and neglect in the United States for 2007 is $104 billion.
• Abused children are 25% more likely to experience teen pregnancy.
• Abused teens are 3 times less likely to practice safe sex, putting them at greater risk for STDs.
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Child Abuse & Criminal Behavior

• 14% of all men in prison in the USA were abused as children
• 36% of all women in prison were abused as children
• Children who experience child abuse & neglect are 59% more likely to be arrested as a juvenile, 28% more likely to be arrested as an adult, and 30% more likely to commit violent crime.
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Child Abuse Consequences

• Abused children are 25% more likely to experience teen pregnancy
• Abused teens are 3 times less likely to practice safe sex, putting them at greater risk for STDs
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Child Abuse & Substance Abuse

• Children who have been sexually abused are 2.5 times more likely to abuse alcohol 
• Children who have been sexually abused are 3.8 times more likely develop drug addictions
• Nearly two-thirds of the people in treatment for drug abuse reported being abused as children

Think of me

It's been a long time, and we still speak
Just the thought of being with you makes me weak
Memories of us flood my mind from day to day,
As I daydream about you entering my life with a plan to stay
I long for your warn hugs and the laughter you bring,
I wonder if you ever miss me, the way I miss your everything
Do the sporadic nights we share together leave you with a feeling of completeness?
I want to know how you feel, 'cause you're my only weakness
Your irresistibility stays locked up inside my heart,
I want you to be with me even when we are apart
I wish you would hold me close and whisper in my ear,
Tell me all of the sweet things that I've been waiting so long to hear
And as each day comes to an end and I still can't claim you as mine,
I pray that the next will deliver enchanting thoughts of me into your mind.

Lonely Girl

In the dark corner
The silent pipes leak
Sits a little girl
She does not speak

A lost and lonely girl
Who sheds a single tear
Thinking she has not purpose in life
And everything to fear

Mom and dad don't really care
She doesn't value life
Never anyone there
To help her with her strife

Tripping over problems
All throughout the day
If only there was someone
To help her on her way

A single friend in life
That really truly cares
But no one is found
At her fragile heart it tears

A sad and lonely life she lives
So she sits in the corner and cries
Cuts her arms a little
And wishes she would die

Now her frail body
Lies limp and dead on the floor
A pool of blood beneath her
In her misery no more

So listen to me my dear
I'm trying to make you see
For that girl in the corner
That lonely girl is me

TripleC

God blessed me with two special people.

Chelsea and Chaz.

Chelsea, the female version of Nigel

and Chaz, my diary.

When i need a shoulder they're there, when i need a laugh they're definitely there.

Chaz Camille And Chelsea. C x3

Triple C for eternity. ( :